Monday, August 10, 2009
I have a new computer, a new web cam. And I have bangs now, and a ponytail, although only a stubble of one. And the garage is slowly getting organized, and the attic cleaned out. And things are quieter now, where the calendar used to be more ink than white. I have learned to say no. And yes.
I am sorry, for expecting too much of Manly, and others too. And I am thirsty for books and words, and for The Word. I am learning. How to garden and how to adopt and how to be comfortable in my skin. And how to feel more deeply, and not to push the feelings aside like a second helping. I am submitting. And I am questioning things I have believed to be true my whole life and, finally, I am not scared to do it, only scared to get it right, because I know everything depends on it.